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I started this journey looking for a girlfriend. Any girl really. Didn’t matter if she was asian, didn’t matter if she was white, didn’t matter if she wasn’t that attractive, etc, etc. I would have been satisfied with a 4/10 ug.
But. Life doesn’t work that way - not for me anyway.
It went more like this - every single girl I talked to somehow ended up being completely and utterly repulsed by me. And you might think that’s ok, not everyone likes everyone in this world. And that’s a fair point. But some of them did. Some would even escalate & lead the conversation for me, they would even go out on a date with me.. But.. some way, some how, I always.. fucked it up.
My dates would always end in a certain set of unavoidable ways;
Nothing would happen; I waited for her to be ‘attracted’ to me enough so I can make the move, but it never happened. I would go home alone, in anger, blaming, the girl for not feeling attracted :D
I would make a move; when the date is going ok, I would say something like ‘Hey, come back to my place’... only to be dealt with a huge, self-esteem crushing NO
Eventually, I would get so nervous that I made the girl uncomfortable… It’s funny; those of you that struggled to understand the concept ‘juxtaposition’ (from high school english) should just read my text messages before and after the date.
Don’t strive for your dreams.
Is what would have happened if I gave up then. But. I didn’t. Something about me HATES accepting failure, even when it seems obvious that success is impossible.
I worked hard. Grinded everyday, rain, sun, cold, hot. And eventually got laid. Repeatedly.
Consistency is what I am aiming for next; And I will get there...1017 views